This has got to be the hardest thing a woman can ever go through!! Waiting for what seems like eternity to have a baby. Knowing that it could happen any day and becoming more discouraged as day after day goes by without a baby to hold.
Each pregnancy seems to get worse for me, too. I have had a harder time waiting for "birth" day each time, although, since we induced with Nick, I knew which day to expect the end to come. This time is torture. Some days it is an emotional difficulty. Other days it is a physical difficulty. I am more uncomfortable in my body than I could ever imagine. I can't sleep at night, which makes it almost impossible to stay awake during the day. This is the time I need most sleep...getting ready for the marathon of labor and delivery, and the longer marathon of sleep deprivation of having a newborn to care for. And yet, I am getting very little sleep to be prepared on. The other night, I laid/sat in bed until I finally dozed off a little after one in the morning. After waking to go potty at three, I couldn't go back to sleep. It didn't help that Nick's alarm went off at four in the morning so he could go fishing! After that, I knew it was hopeless.....so I got up. Just about the time the boys woke up, I was ready for a nap.
By now, I feel like this pregnancy will never end....and if it does (I suppose it will have to at some point) it can not come soon enough for me.
The boys are patiently waiting....not that they have too much concept of time. Nick is being incredibly sweet to Ethan. He likes to rub Ethan and share his toys and snacks with him. He will lift up my shirt and place his toys and snacks on my belly so Ethan can have some too. It is quite sweet to witness. It seems he has more of an idea of what is happening than he has before.
Well, I need to start getting dinner ready. Have a great week and be blessed.
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