Colds And Stockings

I am exhausted!! The first couple weeks after having a baby, you are expecting to be up all night and the adrenaline from having the baby carries you through. You get tired, but nothing you can't handle. Then the second two weeks comes along, and the adrenaline has faded, but you are still up all night. Now you aren't handling it as well. You are more tired than ever and can't seem to even think straight. You wonder if you will ever get any sleep again. The longer this goes on, the harder it gets. But eventually you learn to semi-function on no sleep.

I'm at the extra tired stage. I can't seem to keep my eyes open when I need to. I know I should take advantage of every opportunity to sleep; but I also know that when the older boys are taking their nap, it may be the only chance I have to get some things done. So half the time, instead of sleeping, I am doing some chore around the house. You would think that this might help me sleep at night....but that is not the case. One of these days, this stage will be over and I will look back and say, "It wasn't so bad."

To throw a wrench into the situation, Joey and Ethan both have colds. Neither of them are sleeping well, which makes it even worse. Poor Ethan kept choking last night, so I spent most of the night sitting up in bed holding Ethan so that he could breathe. He has had to have his nose suctioned so many times, and it never seems to help. I feel like I am torturing him for nothing. He also has been grumpier the last few days because he doesn't feel good. So, anytime he is awake (which is not as much as he should be by now) he is fussy. I hope that it is just because he isn't feeling well, and that when he gets over this cold, he will become a mild-tempered, sweet baby. I'm not saying he isn't good. There are moments when he is awake and quiet. I just wish he felt better already.

I have finally started sewing Ethan's stocking. I have a good portion of it done. Now all that is left is the highly detailed parts which will take more time. Time is not a commodity that I have much of. However, I should still be done in time for Christmas. They make great decorations, even if they have nothing in them! I have made a stocking for each of my four boys (yes, I made one for my husband, too.)

There is so much more I could say....but I don't have the mind power right now. Plus, I have left Ethan to be fussy by himself for awhile, so I need to go pay attention to him. He is probably tired having not slept well last night.

Have a great week.