Alone At Night

I'm all alone tonight. Well, except the kids....but that wasn't exactly what I was talking about.
Nick is doing a sleep study tonight. Right now he is hooked up to all sorts of sensors, and if he isn't asleep yet, he probably is watching TV or reading. Of course, if he is reading, then he will be asleep by the time I'm finished with this sentence. Yes, he has the amazing ability to fall asleep in minutes. He just doesn't wake up refreshed, and with is rather loud snoring, he may have sleep apnea. So tonight he will be observed and diagnosed. Hopefully, they will be able to find some way to help.
The boys went down relatively easy, considering that their Daddy is gone. I wonder how soon it will be before Nick comes into my room. Joey has been doing really well, lately, staying in his bed all night long. Even if he gets up, he is easily put back to bed as long as I lay down with him for a few minutes. Nick, on the other hand, usually joins us between midnight and two am. He is not so easily put back to bed, and because he shares a room with Ethan, I prefer not to make a big fuss over it, or I would have two children up in the middle of the night. There are times when I am able to lay Nick down with Joey, but half the time, he just comes back anyway.
Ethan is my best sleeper by far, but I suppose that will change over the course of the next year....if he follows the patterns of his brothers.
I'm a super hero! Did you know that? The other day, Nick was playing on the floor, when he jumped up and climbed in my lab claiming he saw a spider. I looked all over and didn't see anything. He pointed to the slate border of the fireplace, where any bug would be able to camoflauge itself. I still didn't see anything. Finally, the bug made its way onto the white wall and Nick pointed it out to me. It was a tiny flying insect, not a spider, thank goodness for that. So I took my slipper, squished the bug, and disposed of it outside. Nick shouts, "You're a super hero, Mom!" It was the sweetest thing. I beamed for the next few hours.
I'm reaching the point in my pregnancy where I started getting really sick with Ethan. I'm kind of frightened. I don't know how I will handle myslef if I get that sick again. Right now I feel a lot of "constant." I feel "constantly" full, yet "constantly" like I could eat. I "constantly" have no appetite; nothing sounds good, tastes good, or feels good, yet I "constantly" have to have something in my tummy or I feel a bit ill. I have a "constant" feeling of vague ickiness, and occasionally the ickiness is less vague. It's unpleasant, but totally manageable if it would only stay this way. And then I have the "constant" fear that fear will make me feel worse....that because I'm afraid of feeling sick, I'm going to be sick. Like it's all in my head, if that makes sense.
I'm doing much better about taking my pre-natal vitamins, though. That's just because I finally got the chewable Flintstone kind...actually, the generic kind. I never even knew that was an option until after I had Ethan. I don't swallow pills well, and the horse pills they call pre-natals are the worse. They make me gag. And when you already don't feel good, gagging is not the best thing, because once you start, it's hard to stop. Then I read that a Flintsone vitamin has just the same things, and as long as you get 400 mcg of Folic Acid, you're good to go. So that is a pleasant change.
I have yet to find a doctor. I hate just picking a doctor from a list and not knowing anything about them or having a recommendation from anybody who knows them. This is my fourth pregnancy and my fifth doctor! I guess I will just have to pick one and get it over with. I should get an appointment scheduled sooner rather than later since it can take several weeks before anybody is available. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.
Well, since I have the bed to myself for who knows how long, I should go take advantage of it! Have a great week.